So it’s been a while… yes, this I realize, but I moved into the new place last weekend, and I haven’t had internet/cable set up yet. It’s kind of been annoying, but its been good in other ways. I’ve caught up on One Tree Hill… I’ve been reading the Hunger Games, and I haven’t really been home to notice… except on nights when I know that Big Brother is on, and I’m not glued to the TV to find out who’s getting kicked off next. But anyways… I’ll have cable soon, the place has been really good so far, and I’ve enjoyed life here so much lately. God is so good 🙂
Now, on to the questions:
21.Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton?
I don’t like to worry, nor would I want to be a genius, so for this one, I’m going to go with a joyful simpleton. I find joy in the small and simple things, so I think that label would do me well. Worrying gets nothing accomplished, and being a genius wouldn’t be easy for so many different reasons. I think I’d be able to appreciate things more if I was more joyful.
22. Why are you, you?
Gettin’ deep there, huh? Why am I me? God made me who I am to be who He wants me to be. I like the things that I like because I like them. I do the things that I do, and I hang out with the people that I love, and I go the places that I go because of who I am. So many things in my life have made me who I am, and that’s why I’m me!
23. Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend?
I certainly hope so. I think sometimes this comes to bite me in the butt, because people aren’t always the same friend back to me that I am to them. That became very real to me when I was in Bluefield recently. Those that I call my best friends, I absolutely love to death and would do anything for, but sometimes, anything is way too much, especially when it isn’t always reciprocated. I certainly hope that people who consider me a friend really value the way that I treat them and consider them in everything.
24. Which is worse… when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you?
That’s a tough one! Both aren’t easy at all, but friendships fall away for different reasons. I think it would be worse if a good friend moved away. At least if you lose touch with a friend who lives right near you, you can always do what it takes to reconnect with them. If someone moves away, it’s not always that easy. I guess this is where you can insert the typical “thank god for facebook” diatribe.
25. What are you most grateful for?
I think as we all “grow up”, we become increasingly aware of how blessed we truly are. I think my answer for this one right now is my parents. They’ve put up with me for the past 25 years, have seen me through the ups and downs along the way, and they still love me no matter what. I am eternally grateful that God gave them to me, and I don’t know where I’d be without them. Granted, sometimes it drives me insane that my mother and I are kind of the same person, but I live to hear my dad laugh until he cries, and even though it drives me crazy, it always makes me smile when my mom STILL asks the question: “Who sings this song?”. I’ll miss both of them dearly one day, but for now, I am most grateful for who they are, and for the person that they’ve raised me to be. In the same breath, I think I absolutely have to say that I am incredibly grateful for my church, and my church family. Since October, I have been falling in love with Hope Church. The people, the mission, the heart of it all. It’s been so wonderful to be a part of a family who’s hands and feet and lives and heart really are beating for Jesus. It’s something that I’ve wanted for a long time, and now that I’ve found it, I just can’t get enough.
26. Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones?
I’d be devastated if either happened… If you’ve ever met me at all, I love making memories… and reminiscing about old ones. I take way too many pictures, and want to have them around me all the time so that I always remember where I was, what I was feeling, and who I was with. My old memories have made me who I am, and if I lost the ability to make new memories, I don’t think I’d really be living.
27. Is it possible to know the truth without challenging it first?
I think it is possible to know the truth without challenging it first. I know that my parents are my biological parents, and I’ve never questioned that. I know that my name is Jennifer, and while I’m not always crazy about my name, I know for a fact that it is true. Of course, there are things in life that we believe are true, yet we might not ever know for a fact, beyond the shadow of a doubt that in fact they are true. That’s how life is. I’m sure I could bust out some theological biblical reasoning for this school of thought, but I won’t. I think it’s a healthy thing to challenge the truth. I think it’s a beautiful things to seek, and wonder, and ask questions, especially about the things that are worth challenging.
28. Has your greatest fear ever come true?
My greatest fear has not come true yet, but one day, it will… it’s inevitable… it will happen. I think about it sometimes, especially when things in life happen that prompt me to think about it, but I know that in time, when the day comes that my greatest fear will come true, I will be okay. My faith has already been preparing my heart for that day, and while I’m certainly not looking forward to it, I know that I am better equipped to handle such fears when they arise.
29. Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset? Does it really matter now?
In the moment, when something happens and you’re incredibly extremely upset, it seems like the biggest thing ever in your life. And while that may be true, life indeed does go on. 5 years ago, I would have been 20 years old. Normally, if it had been any other age in my life, I probably would have said “yeah, I don’t really remember anything that happened that made me ‘extremely upset’, and therefore, no, it doesn’t really matter now”, but age 20 was a year of sadness for me. My 10 year old cousin Blake was diagnosed with Leukemia in September, and passed away that March. That summer, my cousin Heather fell asleep at the wheel and died in a car accident. 2 months later, one of my swimmers was killed in a car accident, and my Great Uncle passed away one week later. In September of the same year (1 year after Blake’s diagnosis), my Big Sister from swimming died in her sleep from a heart condition. Within a 9 month time span, I lost 5 people in my life who were very special. That year was hard. Very very hard. I had a really hard time dealing with death, and loss, and grieving, and I had to learn how to do it very quickly. It didn’t happen overnight, it took a really long time to make sense of it all, and to finally be okay with all that had happened. Don’t get me wrong, I’m still upset sometimes. I’d give anything to pick up the phone and call my cousin Heather when I’m visiting in Bluefield. Blake would be a Senior in High School this next year, and I know he would have been on Homecoming/Prom court. Jess would probably be married with a family and kids on the way, and I know that family dinners at her house would have been so much fun. I miss these people all the time. My heart hurts for them, and I know that I’ll see them all again someday. I know I rambled on a lot, but to get back to the question, that time that I was upset 5 years ago, it’s not as hard as it was then, but it does still matter now. It has helped me grow, and it has made me who I am. It has helped me to be able to help others when they are grieving from loss of loved ones. It has helped me understand that my faith is incredibly important, and that Heaven is forreal, and it’s given me hope to know that I will see these people that I love again someday.
30. What is your happiest childhood memory?
Good gracious… killing me with the throwback questions. I used to LOVE going to Bluefield (I know… even back then I was in love with that town!) to visit my Granny and PawPaw. It used to be the highlight of our trip when my dad would pull out the tractor and he’d ride us around their mountain. I used to love heading to the Lebanese Food Festival with my entire family, because literally, that whole weekend was a family reunion. We used to vacation in Emerald Isle, North Carolina for YEARS and it would be so awesome when my whole family (aunts, grandma, us) would go for the whole week to the beach. I think those things made me the happiest. When it was us as a family, doing family things. I can’t wait to do those things with my kids and my husband… someday.
Hopefully the next installment won’t be after such a long hiatus. I still have some unpacking to do, but maybe next time I’ll post some pics up of the new place… maybe 🙂